May 2010

This month was a little more exciting then April.
For starters I had a major meltdown at work. I am not kidding. They overworked me and it totally stressed me out. To the point where I got up from my desk, went to the bathroom and cried. I don't want to sound like a big wimp who can't handle a huge workload. I normally manage on any given day, but on this particular day it really got to me and I just couldn't handle it. I almost walked out, that's how bad it was. It was too much to put it plainly. I think on that particular day that was the real defining moment of "I don't know how much more of this shit I can take" mode. And I have been feeling it since.

Other then that, we had our marriage classes right before the long weekend. They were incredinly insightful. Especially the one about managing finances. I could have thrown up when she said how much a kid costs. Yeeeh.
It made me really excited though to have the actual wedding because I couldn't wait to marry the man I love with my whole heart. It was pretty two months from the date of the classes *or close enough*.

The other interesting thing that happened that month was our first weekend of camping (we actually went twice that month). I frigin love camping and when I go like 6 months with getting the camper all ready and whatever, I start to get the itch. I long for it, I crave it, it's impossible not to think about it. It was nice going but I got kind of sick the last night we were there so while everyone else was out by the campfire I stayed in the camper and watched movies.

So that was May. The countdown was officially on before the wedding. And I knew the next two months were going to be intense.

Until then.....