Work is my woe!

Ok...so I promised an entry tonight about the goings on of work. So here it is!
I don't even know what to think anymore because there has been so much shit going on that I feel like I can't even be happy there anymore. I actually I KNOW I'm not happy!
For the longest time I have been so stressed out because I am overworked and underpaid. A lot of people see it and they tell me so. What is even worse though is how I am treated by some people there. For starters there is one guy there who is highly opinionated and can be an ass on most days. Yeh, I am all for having your own opinion, but this guy is "never wrong"..or so he thinks. Then there are the other's that are there that in some instances don't want to help other people (namely me) and is only looking out for number 1...theirselves. I have to pull teeth to get them to go out of their way and do a little extra....
....and after a point that gets pretty frikin frusterating.
Should I mention the shit that has been going on the past two weeks? Yes, I think I will. See...it has been brought to my attention that I was doing something at work that I should not have been doing, It's nothing really bad..I mean, I seriously thought that it wasn't that big of a deal. So, when I did realize I was doing it I decided to stop...or try to anyway. And I was doing really good with it. (I actually realized the day before I was told...when my supe came and told me about it I guessed right away....trust me. I get picked on ALOT at that place). Anyway, the wrong person told me about it....I wanted the person who recognized what was going on to tell me about it, not the one person who finds pleasure to nitpik every little thing I do.
About a week later, I approached the person I wanted to tell me about the little prob and he told me that he didn't want it to go as far as it did and he apologized, which was great. I felt better about the whole shituation already.
I don't think it was 15 min later when one of my co-workers came up and told me that I was being watched! I couldn't believe it. I felt like I was in grade school all over again. Especially after I worked so hard the whole week before just to prove these people wrong. And I guess that was my breaking point because oh my goodness, as soon as I reached the parking lot at the end of the working day, I was a mess of tears. I told my loving husband and he was soo mad....he wanted me to go to HR about because he felt like I was being treated poorly.
The next day, which was actually my birthday, (yeh, Happy Frikin Birthday) I gathered up every bit of nerve I had and approached HR. She and I have a pretty good working relationship anyway so I knew that I could talk to her. I just think that I was afraid that she already knew about it and wanted my attention brought to the whole situation. But when I went in to speak to her she was totally understanding on my part and didn't know what was going on. She told me to not worry about it and that she would talk to the right person about the whole situation and that she didnt see me doing anything wrong.
During the last week I was trying my best not to frig up...even though I was told not to worry I still didnt want to take any chances. It was hard sometimes though, because sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. (And this was the case as per HR in the past that I was just doing my job but certain people were not seeing it that way.)
Last night at our Christmas party (our house party) a couple of co-workers were talking to C about it. Now, I need to bring up that HR did talk to the right person just days before and the whole being watched thing was horse raddish.....so I thought) BUT APPARENTLY I WAS BEING MONITORED. And it was as per management. I really don't think HR had anything to do with it, but I do think my Supe above my supe did play a huge part in it, because one day I must have pissed him off.....doing extra duties.....long story......people are lazy.....they can't clean a frikin kitchen, I don't know why...it's beyond me.
I was so hurt when C told me that.
And honestly, I still am. I feel like I can't do anything and it is to the point where I should probably start looking for a new job. C thinks that they are all playing mind games with me....I don't know if that is the definite case, but whatever it is, they should be upfront and honest with me and not worry about how I will take it.
I think it takes a real person to tell someone how they feel or bring something up to someone who is supossed to be their friend. Don't f'n sugarcoat it or bring it higher to management or whatever the hell they do. Just be honest.
As for me trusting people there? Na-un.....there's quite a few people that I can't trust as far as I could throw them, and it kind of makes me question myself when I am there. Thank God I don't have work tomorrow because I just don't have it in me to go there.....but heaven help me when Tuesday rolls around because I don't know what I am going to do.
Until then ......