Feelin a little bit better

In a couple of more days Chris will be back and I am very much looking forward to it. I know he has only been gone for like two weeks, and I figured the more times he went away, the more I would get used to it. Well, this isn't particularily the case. I think the more he goes away, the more I think about how lonely I am going to be, because I already know what I go through, and how down in the dumps I get. I SHOULD be used to it. It SHOULD get easier......I SHOULD NOT be so moody and not want to do anything while he is away(if that makes sense), but I never feel that way!
I heard from him the other night, which felt like it took forever to hear from him. I had been anticipating his call for like three nights...at least. And when that phone rang Saturday night, I felt so relieved, because I was worried.....you know...him bein in the middle of the ocean...weather...all that not so great stuff to worry about! And I was already worrying about the usual garbage I worry about.....WHICH I REALLY NEED TO STOP!!! I thought he was goin to be home Thursday but he told me it will be on Friday, and he may have duty. I was hoping to find out by tonight but I guess he was super busy (like he said he was going to be) so I hopefully I will hear from him Thursday, on my next night off.
Yes, I finally had a day off. And I decorated the apartment. The stupid tape didnt stick the best. I was not very impressed with it. But in the longrun, it looked ok with what I had to work with. This Halloween is going to be really different. I am so used to decorating the porch back home, and givin out treats. This year, I will most likely be working! Boo on that!
For some strange reason something just popped into my head that someone said to me at work the other night. They knew that I was waiting for Chris to come home and she said "It must get lonely all the time." and I agreed with her, and then she asked "Why dont you move back home?" I told her that I didn't want to do that because I loved Chris too much and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him, so him being away is something I have to get used to.
I have to go back to work tomorow. But at least I dont have 6 days straight...for now anyway...as far as I know...I wonder if I will get a weekend day off?
Probably not. Knowin my durty luck with schedules.

Well I should go now. Its late and I should get in bed. Hope my decorations dont fall down during the night. Peace!!