I tried. I really really tried. But the more Im at that awful crappy place with those awful shitty hours, I could just sit down and cry. Im so close to quitting, Whats stopping me? The fact that the money is good and I need it and also that if I did quit Id have at least 3 people disappointed in me. I had a "moment" tonight because I was just totally frusterated. And you would never believe how many times I have actually thought about just up and walking out. I know the defeatist attitude is the wrong attitude to have, but I just dont know what to think anymore. Put it this way, you put up with lots of garbage(basically). I REALLY DONT THINK ITS EASY MONEY......you just have to know so much....yeh, maybe it gets easier as time goes by but when you're new the first couple of months are never easy....then the hours TOTALLY SUCK....how true is that?....its totally screwing up my day.....working til 2, up til 3 maybe later...and then in bed half the day. blah. I told myself not to be such a whiney brat about it, but I just wanna quit. I aint a quitter but......you know.
Anyway, I vented, and I really dont care if I do look like a loser or whatever. Im angry.
Im out.
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