I was in a bit of a bad mood when I wrote my last blog. Now mind you, the fact of working til 2:00 in the morning doesnt really make me want to jump and down with excitement, but Im trying to accept it.....for now anyway. Im currently working on getting another job which has better hours, ones that I can handle, that would not really make me dread going to work everyday.
Having said that. I bitched the other day and done it all...but maybe I wasnt being clear. See, everyone has their days when things dont seem to be going their way. As for me, I had 4 days right in a row last week. I guess it all started when the sneezing started and the cold struck me within 24 hours....it hit me and it hit me hard. So, my feeling miserable and then receiving that horrible horrible schedule didnt seem to make things any the more better. In all honesty, I didnt think it was good sense to be up all hours of the night with the way that I was feeling. And the very thought and idea of having to work all my nights pretty well with not even a weekend to enjoy just made me so .......down in the dumps.
Everyone complains about one thing or another....petty or not. They just don't see any justice in the way their life is going. But then you gotta really sit down and be thankful for what you have.
Having said THAT, I dont for one second regret moving up here. Not in the least. Sure there are those moments when I could go crazy because I miss everyone back home so much. But there are not many job opportunities back home, and with the old job, well face it....I was getting absolutly nowhere with it. I was making barely 50 cents more then what I started. You cant go far on like $7.02 an hour. Yes, the money is good here at this job, but I find it stressful. I really do. Im not up to par what to do and then I freak out. That is why I am so miserable there. Its really a field where I dont have that much knowledge in.
As for moving here, I am so glad I done it. Yeh I dont get to see C as much as I want to and that really sucks, but we are trying to spend as much time together as possible. I love this man, and I definetly dont want to go home. He means way to much to me. I love him with my whole heart and nothing will ever change that. I knew before I even came up here that it was going to be hard and I knew that reality was going to slap me in the face. Its a challange but in all honesty Im really proud of myself for making it this far. A lot of ppl back home said I would be back home within a month or two and here it is almost 5 months now and I have no intentions in moving back.
I hope I made myself a little clear on the situation. I dont think I jumped into this too soon at all. Im glad with the decision I made.
Im out!
Peace!!
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