I was in a bit of a bad mood when I wrote my last blog. Now mind you, the fact of working til 2:00 in the morning doesnt really make me want to jump and down with excitement, but Im trying to accept it.....for now anyway. Im currently working on getting another job which has better hours, ones that I can handle, that would not really make me dread going to work everyday.
Having said that. I bitched the other day and done it all...but maybe I wasnt being clear. See, everyone has their days when things dont seem to be going their way. As for me, I had 4 days right in a row last week. I guess it all started when the sneezing started and the cold struck me within 24 hours....it hit me and it hit me hard. So, my feeling miserable and then receiving that horrible horrible schedule didnt seem to make things any the more better. In all honesty, I didnt think it was good sense to be up all hours of the night with the way that I was feeling. And the very thought and idea of having to work all my nights pretty well with not even a weekend to enjoy just made me so .......down in the dumps.
Everyone complains about one thing or another....petty or not. They just don't see any justice in the way their life is going. But then you gotta really sit down and be thankful for what you have.
Having said THAT, I dont for one second regret moving up here. Not in the least. Sure there are those moments when I could go crazy because I miss everyone back home so much. But there are not many job opportunities back home, and with the old job, well face it....I was getting absolutly nowhere with it. I was making barely 50 cents more then what I started. You cant go far on like $7.02 an hour. Yes, the money is good here at this job, but I find it stressful. I really do. Im not up to par what to do and then I freak out. That is why I am so miserable there. Its really a field where I dont have that much knowledge in.
As for moving here, I am so glad I done it. Yeh I dont get to see C as much as I want to and that really sucks, but we are trying to spend as much time together as possible. I love this man, and I definetly dont want to go home. He means way to much to me. I love him with my whole heart and nothing will ever change that. I knew before I even came up here that it was going to be hard and I knew that reality was going to slap me in the face. Its a challange but in all honesty Im really proud of myself for making it this far. A lot of ppl back home said I would be back home within a month or two and here it is almost 5 months now and I have no intentions in moving back.
I hope I made myself a little clear on the situation. I dont think I jumped into this too soon at all. Im glad with the decision I made.
Im out!
Peace!!
Monday, June 19, 2006
Friday, June 16, 2006
What a S***uation.
Im not very happy right now. I actually just want to quit this sucky ass job that I have and finally be happy for the first time in weeks. Put it this way. Im in a job that makes me absolulty miserable. Im nervous when Im at it, and then I get frusterated and I just feel so lost sometimes that I could sit down and cry. And looking at the fact that finding a new job isnt going to be any easier is making me feel ten times worse.
You will never believe the hours that Im on. Til 2 f'n o clock in the morning? WTF is up with that? Yeh I can understand that we're the newbies and all, but maybe they should make it fair, considering we had training til 12 in the a.m. , then the first week we worked til 1:30 in a.m. and now the second week we got shifts right til 2. I dont know about some ppl but I know that I cant function that late in the night (or in this case, early in the morning). Training was tought enough. And hello....I have a social life as well you know. .
Yeh, Im bitching, but I got so much.....I dunno, anger built and fueled inside of me, I gotta let it out. So much for the "don't worry, you'll all be getting the dayshift." WHATEVER!!!
I am just hoping that it will get better in the next couple of weeks. C is going at the end of July and I want some sort of a Summer with him.
I 've had the flu the last few days so I have had to stay home from work...but thats another completely differnt story that I just dont feel like getting into right now.
Can you say completly frusterated?
More later. Peace
You will never believe the hours that Im on. Til 2 f'n o clock in the morning? WTF is up with that? Yeh I can understand that we're the newbies and all, but maybe they should make it fair, considering we had training til 12 in the a.m. , then the first week we worked til 1:30 in a.m. and now the second week we got shifts right til 2. I dont know about some ppl but I know that I cant function that late in the night (or in this case, early in the morning). Training was tought enough. And hello....I have a social life as well you know. .
Yeh, Im bitching, but I got so much.....I dunno, anger built and fueled inside of me, I gotta let it out. So much for the "don't worry, you'll all be getting the dayshift." WHATEVER!!!
I am just hoping that it will get better in the next couple of weeks. C is going at the end of July and I want some sort of a Summer with him.
I 've had the flu the last few days so I have had to stay home from work...but thats another completely differnt story that I just dont feel like getting into right now.
Can you say completly frusterated?
More later. Peace
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Only 4 more days
Yes. Its true. It wont be much longer now. Im very excited. You would never believe how much I missed C. I talk to him pretty much every day (sometimes twice a day..usually on the weekends.) I know hes looking forward to coming home, and I know he misses me as much as I miss him.
So the last two weeks (or nearly 2 weeks anyway) havnt been too bad. Training is going almost too quick for my liking. We've only got one more week left (4 days in my case since Im flying home on Friday). Theres so much information and I havnt got a clue..no kidding. But this week is going to be alot of review and dad told me not to have a negative attitude about so I'm really trying not to. This week is going to be hard to concentrate thou because I'll see my man in less then a week. Sweet!
Yesterday I was feeling kind of low. The lonliness was getting to me the most. But when C called me and I was talking to him for almost 40 minutes I felt a lot better.......that and crying before he called. (crying helps alot, in my opinion.)
The weekends actually havnt been that bad. Last Saturday afternoon I went to the mall with my sis, my bro in law, and a couple of their friends. I didnt buy anything, I didnt really see much I liked. I've got a bad sense in fashion really. Things are too gurly for me. Im such a tomboy....but then I've always been like that. Hey...if it isnt comfortable I dont wanna wear it. End of story.
Saturday night we went to the tall ship. I hadnt planned on getting drunk but I did. My B-I-L
kept buying me beer so I wasnt feeling to bad when I got home later that night. Sunday I felt like crap thou so I pretty much had to nurse myself back to health again.
This weekend was ok as well. I went to a bbq with my sis and them and I met a few of the ppl she works with. That was pretty interesting.
Tonight we are going out to supper and then to a movie. Im actually waiting for them now because they're sposed to be here really soon. Maybe I should get on the ball and brush my teeth. (Just a suggestion.)
Most likely the next time I write in this is next weekend after the wedding.......so until then, PEACE!
So the last two weeks (or nearly 2 weeks anyway) havnt been too bad. Training is going almost too quick for my liking. We've only got one more week left (4 days in my case since Im flying home on Friday). Theres so much information and I havnt got a clue..no kidding. But this week is going to be alot of review and dad told me not to have a negative attitude about so I'm really trying not to. This week is going to be hard to concentrate thou because I'll see my man in less then a week. Sweet!
Yesterday I was feeling kind of low. The lonliness was getting to me the most. But when C called me and I was talking to him for almost 40 minutes I felt a lot better.......that and crying before he called. (crying helps alot, in my opinion.)
The weekends actually havnt been that bad. Last Saturday afternoon I went to the mall with my sis, my bro in law, and a couple of their friends. I didnt buy anything, I didnt really see much I liked. I've got a bad sense in fashion really. Things are too gurly for me. Im such a tomboy....but then I've always been like that. Hey...if it isnt comfortable I dont wanna wear it. End of story.
Saturday night we went to the tall ship. I hadnt planned on getting drunk but I did. My B-I-L
kept buying me beer so I wasnt feeling to bad when I got home later that night. Sunday I felt like crap thou so I pretty much had to nurse myself back to health again.
This weekend was ok as well. I went to a bbq with my sis and them and I met a few of the ppl she works with. That was pretty interesting.
Tonight we are going out to supper and then to a movie. Im actually waiting for them now because they're sposed to be here really soon. Maybe I should get on the ball and brush my teeth. (Just a suggestion.)
Most likely the next time I write in this is next weekend after the wedding.......so until then, PEACE!
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