Maybe I shouldn't be so down in the dumps, but the truth is I am so lonely right now. I didn't think I would survive this past weekend. I mean just thinking of the fact that I was here by myself and all of my other friends (or most of them anyway) were having a good time for theirself, camping, spending time with other friends, whatever. I havnt really been in contact with anyone besides for the clerks at the two or three stores I went to on Saturday. And whats worse? Chris didn't even call me Friday night. You would never believe how down that got me. I kept thinking of how unfair it was that I was stuck here with hardly any friends that I can truly hang around with, or how the one man I love with all of my heart has to go away for weeks at a time, when even one day away from him tortures my soul. But, life is full of obstacles and things we must overcome. Im so glad that I have him in my life. Its only going to be a little less then three weeks now and he will be back. For now I will concentrate on my training classes so that in three weeks time Im not a dummy out on the floor. (yes, Im nervous about that as well, but thats what training is for.)
My weekend in detail isnt that much. I lazed around here for most of the weekend, doing what I had to do. Bathing, doing dishes, cooking, practicing my drawing skills (which arent the greatest), watching endless hours of tv...(and I mean that literally) and also catching up on some reading.
Im actually kind of looking forward to going to work today. This weekend has been much to long and lonely as well, so just being around people makes me a little happier. Its even better that its in the night time which will make my nights less long and less lonely, some what.
But boy oh boy, am I ever tired. I dont think I've had a proper nights rest since Chris has been gone away.
So, sometimes the tears really want to come....the threat of them are almost always there, but Im going to have to make the best of it. For my sake.
Anyway, Im out. PEACE!!
2 comments:
Hey Jilly,
Sorry to hear you are feeling down in the dumps. I know life can get lonely sometimes and I guess everyone has their own stuff they deal with and sometimes it seems to much and makes you feel like crying and that is perfectly normal sometimes. At least with work it keeps you busy and stuff. Maybe there is somewhere close by you can volunteer. That could be fun for weekends and stuff and a great way to meet new peeps as well, not to mention rewarding. ANyways, if you need to talk I am around.
Love, Tiff
Very pretty site! Keep working. thnx!
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