Day 1 while my man is away.

I seriously think I am going to go off of my head. C has been gone for not even ten hours and I miss him like you would never believe. I guess after a couple of nights I will get used to it and before you know it I will be back in his arms again and we will be packing our bags to go to NL for that weekend. We're going there for a wedding and I am so looking forward to that. I was fortunate enough to get that time off because I will just be finishing training and I was talking to one of the staff at work and was told it would not be a problem. I am so excited. I am getting so drunk and I am going to dance the night away because I just want to dance.
Tiff, I really hope that I get to see you. As you know though, time is very limited which sux. Hopefully that Sunday we can arrange something.

On a more personal note, last week wasnt a good week. I found out some really bad news on Thursday which shocked me like a punch in the face. A girl I know was in a car accident and she didn't survive. I have known this young woman for a long time....when I was at least in jr high. (shes younger then I and her sister and I were freinds) The only way I can express my feelings is by writing a poem, but the words just havnt come to me yet. And as I sit here I just cant find the right words to show how I am really feeling. Sad of course, but also confused, and angry. Its pretty hard to talk about! I just want you to know that she was a great person and she had an awesome personality, and a beautiful voice. And if you were down or unsure of yourself, she would always pick you up when you were down. I consider her a friend for being such a great friend to me, and I will always miss her and keep her in my heart!

Work is going ok. I finish up with one company tomorrow and start training with another on Monday. I feel a lot more confident with the way I handle things there then how I felt a few days ago. Yeh, it eventually came to me, and even thou I still feel kind of nervous every time I clock in, it makes it alittle easier as each day goes by.
So of course the money is coming in which helps so much.
But I still really miss Chris right now so I have to find something to keep myself entertained.
Which probably means alot more blogs in here for the next few days. So keep yourself posted. More to come!
Peace!