So yeh, I dont know what Im going to do with myself because this is just too much. All I know is that I want a good job. And to me right now, things seem so hopeless. The only thing that I can do right now is continue looking and applying to different jobs, especially those close by. Its all I can do!
Besides for the constant thinking about my most recent worry, things arent that bad. This weekend came and went in a blur. Almost too quick if you ask me. I had work yesterday from 11-430 . I was really glad to get home. I lazed around the apartment with Chris and had pizza for supper. I also finished a novel and talked to some friends. Around 730 we left here and went for a drive before we went to the movie, which Chris treated me for.
We got home around 12 or so and I done some online searching for a job until I went to bed.
I guess you could say that I am so unhappy right now that I will continue to check the job databases to see if anything comes up.
Today I woke up realivley early. I was showered and ready by 11:00 and Chris and I just stayed here until about 430. I treated him to supper and it was so delish. Then he treated me to an ice cream.
When we got back here to the apartment, I called my mom and dad. My dog was talking to me in the background (kind of) which made me miss her so much.
So anyway, other then the obvious things are going ok. I have work early tomorrow, which is good because then I can get the work over with. Im going to try to have the confidence that I need and hopefully I will have a good week.
Well, I must go because I dont know what else to write. Will keep posting thou to let you know if anything cool comes up!
PEACE!
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006
WANTED: SOME MORE CONFIDENCE
Yeh, its true peeps....I dont have much confidence and its clearly evident.....so clearly evident. And, because my confidence is low, especially in this particular situation,I wonder if this is the thing for me. Im starting to really have my doubts, so once again, the search begins.
I start that whole damn process over and its enough to make someone cry. I just hope I soon find what I am looking for before I go silly.
These last few days have been a little on the stressful side. I've lost sleep because Im worrying over things so much. I just need sleep, and I hope that I get it tonight.
Other then that, my days and nights are often filled with the same thing. Go to work, come home, grab a bite to eat, if theres time, go do something, and then watch a little bit of tv before I go to bed.
Oh yeh, I probably forgot to mention that I seen someone I didnt really think I was going to see this past Mondahy, and to tell the truth, someone I was avoiding. I'm not sure if he got the hint for him to leave me alone, but if he didnt, then, I dont know what else I got to do. Thats another thing thats totally frusterating.
Anyway, I will have a recap on Sunday night what happened this coming weekend. Hopefully things will be ok, and the weekend wont be as bad as I thought.
By the way, we arent going camping because I have work. Its also sposed to rain. That really sux.
Im out!
PeAcE
I start that whole damn process over and its enough to make someone cry. I just hope I soon find what I am looking for before I go silly.
These last few days have been a little on the stressful side. I've lost sleep because Im worrying over things so much. I just need sleep, and I hope that I get it tonight.
Other then that, my days and nights are often filled with the same thing. Go to work, come home, grab a bite to eat, if theres time, go do something, and then watch a little bit of tv before I go to bed.
Oh yeh, I probably forgot to mention that I seen someone I didnt really think I was going to see this past Mondahy, and to tell the truth, someone I was avoiding. I'm not sure if he got the hint for him to leave me alone, but if he didnt, then, I dont know what else I got to do. Thats another thing thats totally frusterating.
Anyway, I will have a recap on Sunday night what happened this coming weekend. Hopefully things will be ok, and the weekend wont be as bad as I thought.
By the way, we arent going camping because I have work. Its also sposed to rain. That really sux.
Im out!
PeAcE
Monday, April 24, 2006
One more time.
SUBTITLED: STILL SCARED AND NERVOUS:
so, I had a blog wrote last night and I realized after I had it published that I wanted to say something else. Funny thing is, it wouldnt work for me so I had to delete it and now since I have a quick minute I am going to try this again.
ANYWAY.
Yes. I am still scared and nervous even thou I have one day of actual work done. I lack the self-confidence which you need when it comes to this kind of job. I am also afraid that I might fool something up. But, Im only human and I make mistakes, so thats the way its going to have to be. Tomorrow is another day of the same thing, followed by three more days of that. I am really looking forward to Friday getting here!
Luckily I have had a great support system telling me that I was going to do ok. Thank you so much guys. Your words of encouragement made things easier.
In the other entry I wrote I talked about my weekend. Since I dont have that much time (because I want to get to bed) I will give you a quick synopsis.
Friday I was in a very unpleasent mood. I wanted to go, but its a good thing I never, mainly for the fact that I was very tired and in bed by 1045. Saturday, C and I lazed around here for a few hours and then went out after we were showered up. Saturday night we went to my sisters house and had some drinks. I didnt have that many to tell you the truth.
And then on Sunday, it was such a beautiful day. I could have actually got a tan if I tried..but I didnt, so oh well.
So now its Monday and I have one day punched, which is actually a little bit of the weight off my shoulders. Hopefully tomorrow will be easier.
I'm Out!!
Peace!!!
so, I had a blog wrote last night and I realized after I had it published that I wanted to say something else. Funny thing is, it wouldnt work for me so I had to delete it and now since I have a quick minute I am going to try this again.
ANYWAY.
Yes. I am still scared and nervous even thou I have one day of actual work done. I lack the self-confidence which you need when it comes to this kind of job. I am also afraid that I might fool something up. But, Im only human and I make mistakes, so thats the way its going to have to be. Tomorrow is another day of the same thing, followed by three more days of that. I am really looking forward to Friday getting here!
Luckily I have had a great support system telling me that I was going to do ok. Thank you so much guys. Your words of encouragement made things easier.
In the other entry I wrote I talked about my weekend. Since I dont have that much time (because I want to get to bed) I will give you a quick synopsis.
Friday I was in a very unpleasent mood. I wanted to go, but its a good thing I never, mainly for the fact that I was very tired and in bed by 1045. Saturday, C and I lazed around here for a few hours and then went out after we were showered up. Saturday night we went to my sisters house and had some drinks. I didnt have that many to tell you the truth.
And then on Sunday, it was such a beautiful day. I could have actually got a tan if I tried..but I didnt, so oh well.
So now its Monday and I have one day punched, which is actually a little bit of the weight off my shoulders. Hopefully tomorrow will be easier.
I'm Out!!
Peace!!!
Friday, April 21, 2006
Week 1 Done!
So, looks like the first week of work is finally over. We had training all week, so it wasnt too bad. Just lots of information being crammed in my poor little brain and I actually start the actual work on Monday. Boy am I ever nervous! But I was told by a great friend that taking deep breaths usually helps She was in a similar job and she knows exactly what I am going thru.
The training class was great. Of course I was really shy when I started and I didnt know how to really approach anyone, but I eventually came out of my shell and before you knew it, I was the crazy girl I normally am in company.
All of the class was right on, the trainer was right on and I had a great week. Except of course, getting up at 7 am. That didnt really turn me on.
SO ANYWAY....C is asleep on the couch right now and I am wondering if we are going to do anything fun tonight. I want to so bad. It seems like Ive been too busy all week doing work stuff or going to bed early and not really enjoying myself, so now it is fun time. Tomorrow I believe I am having a few drinks tomorrow night. Im not doin it tonight because its been a long week and I'm still on the tired side.
And obviously C is too. LOL.
Anyway, I really dont know what else to talk about. So I guess thats it for this posting. I will hopefully write more on Sunday night telling you of my weekend!
PEACE!
Sunday, April 16, 2006
A new change.
Well, I know I said before that I would keep my blog up to date, but I havnt really done that. I am certainly going to try to go every few days from now on. I know its going to be hard thou. Blah.
Tomorrow I start a new but temporary job. To be honest I am a bundle of nerves. I havnt worked since the yc (and that was way too familiar for me) so I will meet new people....a shy and under-confident person starting a new. I know it has to be done and maybe thats why I am so scared. I hate being so shy and everything. Its probably the worst when you're trying to meet new people. Tomorrow and the remainder of the week is only training thou so it shouldnt be too bad!
Keep your fingers crossed for me. :)
This past weekend C and I went away camping. It was really nice and relaxing to get away, just the two of us. It was great going away and being in a camper with the man you love.
So, we arrived at the camp site around 4:30...maybe later...I wasnt really paying attention to the time. We set everything up, I made the bed, swept the floor and pretty soon C had supper started. Theres nothing like barbequed hotdogs to start off a weekend....bbq hotdogs are ten times better then boiled hotdogs. In my opinion anyway.
During supper, wind started to pick up and it started to rain...we knew that we werent going to get a night outside. But we were ok with that. We stayed in the camper and played cards instead.....C beat me. LOL. We were in bed pretty early that night which actually didnt bother me that much.
Friday we woke up and it was still not the greatest weather in the world. C cooked ham and eggs for brunch and then we both got ready...shower, clean up..etc. Later on we went for a walk...a very long walk, which is something else that I didnt mind because I've been really lazy lately...compared to before anyway. We walked to the edge of town on this little trail behind the houses We seen cows and horses, and I think even some Canadian Geese.(thats what they sounded like). Then we walked back to the camper through the town after Chris got some cookies and a coffee and looked at all the old houses. I actually couldnt believe the size of the trees. They were huge.
I was tired when we got back so I decided to lie down for a while and read and then try to catch a few z's. When I awoke, the sun was shining out of the sky and it was so beautiful out...definetly camping weather. C put some chicken on the grill for supper and eventually we ate. After supper, I read for a little bit more(hey, the book was getting good) and then went outside. We(well I) roasted marshmallows and talked which was incredibly relaxing. Bed time came a little later that night. I only had one drink because thats all I was really in the mood for. I felt a little sick later on throughout the night. Wasnt liking that, but by the next morning I felt better......
And guess what? I got some Easter chocolates and a big bunny that is so adorable from my wonderful man! :):):)
I wasnt in the mood for anything greasey for breakfast so I stuck to cereal. While C was in the shower I put my Easter gift out for him..some of his favourite candy and a card.
For the remainder of the day we kept ourselves busy. We walked around the little town and in the different stores, we played some more cards, we played pool. We were together and thats the only thing that mattered to me. The weather started getting a little gross towards supper but I was out as long as I could tolerate the cold....then I had to go in. C was in around 930 and we decided to have another go at cards. I lost for the third time.
Today we woke up and had our breakfast at 9:00 and started getting everything ready to go. We were out of the park by 11:00...actually earlier and back here by 1:00. The rest of the day we just stayed here....C treated us to Chinese for supper(way too much food) and then he watched the game and I tried to figure out what to wear to work.
I just want to say that this past weekend was the best Ive had since I have been here. We may go again next weekend if my schedule allows it and my sister and brother in law may be going as well...and I cant forget they're adorable dog!
I must go to bed now thou. 7:30 comes way to early. I just hope that I sleep.
PEACE OUT!
Tomorrow I start a new but temporary job. To be honest I am a bundle of nerves. I havnt worked since the yc (and that was way too familiar for me) so I will meet new people....a shy and under-confident person starting a new. I know it has to be done and maybe thats why I am so scared. I hate being so shy and everything. Its probably the worst when you're trying to meet new people. Tomorrow and the remainder of the week is only training thou so it shouldnt be too bad!
Keep your fingers crossed for me. :)
This past weekend C and I went away camping. It was really nice and relaxing to get away, just the two of us. It was great going away and being in a camper with the man you love.
So, we arrived at the camp site around 4:30...maybe later...I wasnt really paying attention to the time. We set everything up, I made the bed, swept the floor and pretty soon C had supper started. Theres nothing like barbequed hotdogs to start off a weekend....bbq hotdogs are ten times better then boiled hotdogs. In my opinion anyway.
During supper, wind started to pick up and it started to rain...we knew that we werent going to get a night outside. But we were ok with that. We stayed in the camper and played cards instead.....C beat me. LOL. We were in bed pretty early that night which actually didnt bother me that much.
Friday we woke up and it was still not the greatest weather in the world. C cooked ham and eggs for brunch and then we both got ready...shower, clean up..etc. Later on we went for a walk...a very long walk, which is something else that I didnt mind because I've been really lazy lately...compared to before anyway. We walked to the edge of town on this little trail behind the houses We seen cows and horses, and I think even some Canadian Geese.(thats what they sounded like). Then we walked back to the camper through the town after Chris got some cookies and a coffee and looked at all the old houses. I actually couldnt believe the size of the trees. They were huge.
I was tired when we got back so I decided to lie down for a while and read and then try to catch a few z's. When I awoke, the sun was shining out of the sky and it was so beautiful out...definetly camping weather. C put some chicken on the grill for supper and eventually we ate. After supper, I read for a little bit more(hey, the book was getting good) and then went outside. We(well I) roasted marshmallows and talked which was incredibly relaxing. Bed time came a little later that night. I only had one drink because thats all I was really in the mood for. I felt a little sick later on throughout the night. Wasnt liking that, but by the next morning I felt better......
And guess what? I got some Easter chocolates and a big bunny that is so adorable from my wonderful man! :):):)
I wasnt in the mood for anything greasey for breakfast so I stuck to cereal. While C was in the shower I put my Easter gift out for him..some of his favourite candy and a card.
For the remainder of the day we kept ourselves busy. We walked around the little town and in the different stores, we played some more cards, we played pool. We were together and thats the only thing that mattered to me. The weather started getting a little gross towards supper but I was out as long as I could tolerate the cold....then I had to go in. C was in around 930 and we decided to have another go at cards. I lost for the third time.
Today we woke up and had our breakfast at 9:00 and started getting everything ready to go. We were out of the park by 11:00...actually earlier and back here by 1:00. The rest of the day we just stayed here....C treated us to Chinese for supper(way too much food) and then he watched the game and I tried to figure out what to wear to work.
I just want to say that this past weekend was the best Ive had since I have been here. We may go again next weekend if my schedule allows it and my sister and brother in law may be going as well...and I cant forget they're adorable dog!
I must go to bed now thou. 7:30 comes way to early. I just hope that I sleep.
PEACE OUT!
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