so peeps. Its been a little over three months since I posted anything on this thing. I know its a little slack, but really, we only got this computer like a little over a week ago.....cant go online and post blogs if I aint got any computer! Know'm saying?
Anyway, its funny how things suddenly change when you move somewhere else. Like, the way you live and how it seems like everything basically goes on without you back in your hometown. I dont know..maybe I sound childish or whatever, but when you're in a city where you know hardly anyone, you wonder if people back home really give a damn in how your doing. Dont get me wrong....I know there are those friends that really do care about me and wonder how I am doing...but then there are those others who it seems like the more I try to talk to them the more they seem to be busy with their lives without me. And you would never know how truly depressing that is. I know Im not calling home or friends very often but in all honesty, thats whats keeping me from getting homesick.
I just dont like this, not in the least. Nobody can possibly understand the lonliness I feel sometimes...it eats me up. I'm just hoping that eventually I will find a great friend close by.
Maybe I need to let some of the past go. I look at pictures of people I used to consider my closest friends and cant help but feel left out! I have to control the urge to lash out at them....but then in these cases, the ones I did consider my closest friends before really didnt make much of an effort before I moved which makes me even madder. It seems like after the Summer everything changed....no...correction...things changed way before that.....it just took me a little while to realize it. so....Im letting go....if they are too busy without their lives then fine. I'll be thankful for the friends that really do give a damn about me.
I know theres only one person who reads my blogs that I know, so I just want it to be clear that this is DEFINETLY NOT DIRECTED AT U.
Im just really bitter.
Too bitter really!
So no hard feelings hopefully.
Anyway, I think I bitched enough. More probably tomorrow.
PEACE OUT
