Well, theres a blog now, but what can I say? I got realllly reallly lazy with it! Really cant help that with so much on my mind...worrying and thinking and all that shit! I hate this so much!
I think the biggest problem I have right now is the fact that I dont get to talk to Chris everynight which makes me miss him a lot more.
I think I am going to burst from insanity waiting so long for him to get back here and for me to see him again. I hate being away from him this long, and I hate not getting to talk to him everynight....but listen...I am not going to give up. Knowing that Im doing stuff and that hes thinking about me gets me through another day. Also, knowing that I am soon going to be with him helps too. Whenever he calls me, it puts a smile on my face...espeically after an incredibly shitty day!
So no matter what, I love him and I am never going to let go. My heart is so sure of this.
I have had an incredibly shitty week...well this week is a little bit better then last week. Things seem to be looking up for me......last week was just bad thing after bad thing happening. Im so thankful for a lot of things. There are still some things that are going to put me down in the dumps thou and I guess only time will heal those wounds.
I guess Halloween is in a few days. Thats ok. Then I have a doc appt on Wednesday to try and put some of my worries to rest.
Anyway, gonna try and do this blog thing weekly let you know about some of the shit going down in my life...oh and the good stuff as well. Chris is probably the best thing. I love him so much!!
Im out ! Peace!
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Cough, sniff,...ewww
I have the flu...I feel like shit....what else is there to say?
About that anyway. My head feels like a balloon with about eighty 100 pound rocks in it....I am hoping that some medication will make me feel a little bit better.
Anyway, the past few days have been ok. Work was a little frusterating on Saturday night for reasons that I just dont feel like getting into. Im hoping that we dont have to much of a problem with it though. Guess we'll find out next week.
But I dont have to worry about it after December! Wa-hoo. Yeh, they'll know by my birthday...how great is that!!! I think its superb. I mean, all in all, the job wasnt that bad, and yes, it had its moments, but I really do need a change, which Im so ready to have now!
So, the talk with mom and dad went ok. They were good about it. A lot better then what I thought that they would be! Sweet deal if you ask me.
I must be upfront now and tell you what I feel. I know I met Chris a little over a month ago (about a month and a half now) but, the connection we have is so strong, and I have great feelings about it. If I even felt a little bit doubtful, I wouldnt make this big change in my life....but I feel good. :) I feel realy good.
I love him with everything I have...and with all of my heart!
And I know he feels the same way about me!
So wake me up when December comes :)..its going to be a long two months!
Owww...I just sniffed and my head felt like it was going to explode........pooooooop.
Anyway, not much more to write. Going to go feed my puppy and get ready for work, so peace y'all!
Oh by the way...I would like to thank my dearest closest friends such as Tiff, who was very concerned and supportive about my decision. I said it before but I really do appreciate the advice.
About that anyway. My head feels like a balloon with about eighty 100 pound rocks in it....I am hoping that some medication will make me feel a little bit better.
Anyway, the past few days have been ok. Work was a little frusterating on Saturday night for reasons that I just dont feel like getting into. Im hoping that we dont have to much of a problem with it though. Guess we'll find out next week.
But I dont have to worry about it after December! Wa-hoo. Yeh, they'll know by my birthday...how great is that!!! I think its superb. I mean, all in all, the job wasnt that bad, and yes, it had its moments, but I really do need a change, which Im so ready to have now!
So, the talk with mom and dad went ok. They were good about it. A lot better then what I thought that they would be! Sweet deal if you ask me.
I must be upfront now and tell you what I feel. I know I met Chris a little over a month ago (about a month and a half now) but, the connection we have is so strong, and I have great feelings about it. If I even felt a little bit doubtful, I wouldnt make this big change in my life....but I feel good. :) I feel realy good.
I love him with everything I have...and with all of my heart!
And I know he feels the same way about me!
So wake me up when December comes :)..its going to be a long two months!
Owww...I just sniffed and my head felt like it was going to explode........pooooooop.
Anyway, not much more to write. Going to go feed my puppy and get ready for work, so peace y'all!
Oh by the way...I would like to thank my dearest closest friends such as Tiff, who was very concerned and supportive about my decision. I said it before but I really do appreciate the advice.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
A survey....thanks Tiff :)
Four songs you get stuck in your head frequently:
1.) Pon De Replay…..awesome beat
2.) Better Be Home Soon…good memories from that one
3.) Dare You to Move….more good memories
4.) He Wasn’t….cuz I love it anyway
Four things you’d like to learn:
1.) I’d like to better my piano skills
2.) Math…..haha
3.) To stand up for what I believe in.
4.) To dance really good.
Four vacations you have taken:
1.) Last month up NS for my sisters wedding…best vaycay EVER!
2.) Disney World when I was 8
3.) Away from work, and that’s always a good thing
4.) NS when I was younger as well
Four beverages you drink frquently:
1.) Water
2.) Pepsi
3.) Kool-aid
4.) Beer (?)
Four tv shows that were on when you were a kid:
1.) Punky Brewster
2.) My Pet Monster….hahaha
3.) Jem
4.) Facts of Life
Four places to go to in your area:
1.) The Rec Room
2.) The other club
3.) The groceries…..haha
4.) The youth centre…..double haha
Four things to do when you are bored:
1.) Read
2.) Chat with friends
3.) Watch movies
4.) Drink
Four things that never fail to cheer you up
1.) Chris
2.) Chocolate
3.) Good friends with advice
4.) Dancing
About 20 years ago I was:
1.) 5
2.) Going to school for the first time
3.) Blond
4.) A happy little girl
About 15 years ago I was:
1.) 10
2.) In grade 5 or 6
3.) Made fun of :(
4.) Lovin’ hockey
About 10 years ago I was:
1.) 15
2.) Crazy over a guy named Colin
3.) In grade 11
4.) Hating math
About 5 years ago I was:
1.) 20
2.) Unemployed
3.) Dating a dick!
4.) Still going to college
About 3 years ago I was:
1.) 22
2.) Going steady with Phil
3.) Working at the youth centre full time
4.) Upset (for reasons)
About one year ago I was:
1.) 24
2.) Having doubts about my steady
3.) Having doubts about my job
4.) Wishing I were somewhere else
Today…
1.) I am waiting for Turkey
2.) I am waiting for 930 to call Chris
3.) I am in love
4.) I am patiently waiting the big change
1.) Pon De Replay…..awesome beat
2.) Better Be Home Soon…good memories from that one
3.) Dare You to Move….more good memories
4.) He Wasn’t….cuz I love it anyway
Four things you’d like to learn:
1.) I’d like to better my piano skills
2.) Math…..haha
3.) To stand up for what I believe in.
4.) To dance really good.
Four vacations you have taken:
1.) Last month up NS for my sisters wedding…best vaycay EVER!
2.) Disney World when I was 8
3.) Away from work, and that’s always a good thing
4.) NS when I was younger as well
Four beverages you drink frquently:
1.) Water
2.) Pepsi
3.) Kool-aid
4.) Beer (?)
Four tv shows that were on when you were a kid:
1.) Punky Brewster
2.) My Pet Monster….hahaha
3.) Jem
4.) Facts of Life
Four places to go to in your area:
1.) The Rec Room
2.) The other club
3.) The groceries…..haha
4.) The youth centre…..double haha
Four things to do when you are bored:
1.) Read
2.) Chat with friends
3.) Watch movies
4.) Drink
Four things that never fail to cheer you up
1.) Chris
2.) Chocolate
3.) Good friends with advice
4.) Dancing
About 20 years ago I was:
1.) 5
2.) Going to school for the first time
3.) Blond
4.) A happy little girl
About 15 years ago I was:
1.) 10
2.) In grade 5 or 6
3.) Made fun of :(
4.) Lovin’ hockey
About 10 years ago I was:
1.) 15
2.) Crazy over a guy named Colin
3.) In grade 11
4.) Hating math
About 5 years ago I was:
1.) 20
2.) Unemployed
3.) Dating a dick!
4.) Still going to college
About 3 years ago I was:
1.) 22
2.) Going steady with Phil
3.) Working at the youth centre full time
4.) Upset (for reasons)
About one year ago I was:
1.) 24
2.) Having doubts about my steady
3.) Having doubts about my job
4.) Wishing I were somewhere else
Today…
1.) I am waiting for Turkey
2.) I am waiting for 930 to call Chris
3.) I am in love
4.) I am patiently waiting the big change
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Tomorrow is for turkeys
A week has come and gone and what a week it was. I was in a bit of a mood for most of the time, especially on Thursday.
I think its really starting to get to me....but it is almost the middle of October which means I only have another 2 months to go.
I watched a couple of hockey games this week. Yeh...I'm just not going to get into that cuz I am not a happy hockey fan....althou my man seems to think its funny how much I get into the games. Oh well...cant win em all I spose!
Anyway, as I have said before, I have gotten in moods all week....work isnt fun anymore and just being here isnt fun either....how much longer do I have to wait? Too damn long you ask me.
We had a dance last night which was a bit of switch. I didnt mind having it because it was something to pass away another night.....they always say dont wish away your time....but in this case, I dont think I can do anything but!
Today on the other wasnt the greatest......after 3:00 I didnt get a hell of a lot of sleep because there were drunk people walking down past my house and I got shit on my brain!!
Then work was....work..and i got so many worries....geez.
But that is another thing.
Anyway..I have nothing to say....or dont know how to say it so Im gonna go now, eat and watch a movie.
Tiff, as I have said in your comment. I like your survey, but before I use it I wnat to make sure its ok!!
Im gone!
Peace
I think its really starting to get to me....but it is almost the middle of October which means I only have another 2 months to go.
I watched a couple of hockey games this week. Yeh...I'm just not going to get into that cuz I am not a happy hockey fan....althou my man seems to think its funny how much I get into the games. Oh well...cant win em all I spose!
Anyway, as I have said before, I have gotten in moods all week....work isnt fun anymore and just being here isnt fun either....how much longer do I have to wait? Too damn long you ask me.
We had a dance last night which was a bit of switch. I didnt mind having it because it was something to pass away another night.....they always say dont wish away your time....but in this case, I dont think I can do anything but!
Today on the other wasnt the greatest......after 3:00 I didnt get a hell of a lot of sleep because there were drunk people walking down past my house and I got shit on my brain!!
Then work was....work..and i got so many worries....geez.
But that is another thing.
Anyway..I have nothing to say....or dont know how to say it so Im gonna go now, eat and watch a movie.
Tiff, as I have said in your comment. I like your survey, but before I use it I wnat to make sure its ok!!
Im gone!
Peace
Monday, October 03, 2005
Another week??? Oh my!
So it is Monday....not thrilled about another week of the same thing but thats it. Gotta put up with it until December...then its time for me...time for Chris....how good it is!
Yeh. I am really looking forward to Christmas more then any other year this year...for the most obvious reasons. Ah well...Its October now and we got a lot of things on the go and if I keep busy this month and next month, time will pass by in a flash. YAYY!
Anyway, this weekend wasnt too bad. A lot better then what I thought it was going to be! Friday night and all day Saturday actually passed by pretty damn quick. Thats probably because there were no little kids. Saturday night was a good laugh too.
Raylene and I went out to the club for some drinks...I needed em after the week I had. There was this guy named Nick who was there and he was buying us shots. I thought that was great of him.....however, the last shot did not agree with me. I must have drank it the wrong way because my throat hurt like a bitch after. Anyway, I went to the washroom to cough or something and the next thing I know.....well...you get the picture. I felt better afterwords though...stuck with the water then!
Yesterday on the other hand I didnt feel so great! I was sick for pretty much the whole day and my head was splitting! I would turn my head and I could feel the pressure so much. I was suppossed to cook Sunday supper and that didnt happen. I feel bad about it now too. Next weekend Im sposed to go drinking again but I've got a feeling that I wont be drinking half as much. Cant face another Sunday like that!
Things between Chris and I are great, despite the long distance. Cant wait to get up there and actually have a life or something. Im counting down the days.
Anyway, time to get my shit ready for work!
Peace!
Yeh. I am really looking forward to Christmas more then any other year this year...for the most obvious reasons. Ah well...Its October now and we got a lot of things on the go and if I keep busy this month and next month, time will pass by in a flash. YAYY!
Anyway, this weekend wasnt too bad. A lot better then what I thought it was going to be! Friday night and all day Saturday actually passed by pretty damn quick. Thats probably because there were no little kids. Saturday night was a good laugh too.
Raylene and I went out to the club for some drinks...I needed em after the week I had. There was this guy named Nick who was there and he was buying us shots. I thought that was great of him.....however, the last shot did not agree with me. I must have drank it the wrong way because my throat hurt like a bitch after. Anyway, I went to the washroom to cough or something and the next thing I know.....well...you get the picture. I felt better afterwords though...stuck with the water then!
Yesterday on the other hand I didnt feel so great! I was sick for pretty much the whole day and my head was splitting! I would turn my head and I could feel the pressure so much. I was suppossed to cook Sunday supper and that didnt happen. I feel bad about it now too. Next weekend Im sposed to go drinking again but I've got a feeling that I wont be drinking half as much. Cant face another Sunday like that!
Things between Chris and I are great, despite the long distance. Cant wait to get up there and actually have a life or something. Im counting down the days.
Anyway, time to get my shit ready for work!
Peace!
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